... hooked on sellotape

work-in-progress on a personal mythology; stream of consciousness, heavy on the allusion

Faithful, endquote

God is faithful,
endquote, says the wall
of a Southern church
as we drive past,
and I catch a glimpse of that
pastor’s (and his painter’s)
light-brown haired male God,
who sets down the handset
with a click and turns to His wife
who drops a pill bottle
back into her pocket.
 
There is a burden
on this faithful man’s
shoulders, and a noose around his neck,
at which he tugs, the blue-grey
striped tie that matches the checks
he writes to pay the bills and
he does so with such calm that
we cannot doubt that He is Strong
and Loving. So loving, this
short-haired goateed man-God,
that he turns the knob
ever so quietly,
as he leaves - for don’t they
all need
Him, so?
 
Those long-legged girls
on corners and the top heavy
ones teetering on stools bear witness
to his love. Their lipstick is proof of His
benevolence, His ever-flowing
bounty, the salvation in his touch.
That other one - the
redhead, in the red apartment downtown
of whom he never speaks unless
it is to the chime tinkle clink of
ice in a glass above the Holy Smoke
of an All-Ameican Marlboro -
well, there’s that one,
too, to whom
He is
Faithful.


God
is faithful, endquote.
And so He is, no
doubt, this man. After all,
he returns, turns off the
headlights, and pulls into the garage
and He is even up earliest,
coffee-muggled and hair-part gelled.
He does not complain
nor does He burden
His children with too many
smiles. His shoes shine and He pays
the bills - and the whores - and
He is
faithful.

Older names

I had to ask his name – I mean, not that I
had to -  but it felt like the time, as we parted,
for that sort of thing.

“You can call me Hercules.”
This was presented with a flair,
a flourish, a debonair twinkle that bespoke
the true lie. He gestured to the ATM and
slowly, carefully, rolled another cigarette
through his long-fingered hands while remixing
facial gestures.

I knew that no matter
what his parents may have, truly (indeed,
as a matter of fact) named him –
he was no lion-skinned hero
but rather a seaweed king,
triton-bearing and salt-pickled.

These streets had been mud,
just a few years before, after all,
and haven’t we all forgotten
our older names?

I emphasize the distinction between brackets and no brackets because it will affect your reading experience, if you will allow it. Brackets are exciting. Even though you are approaching Sappho in translation, that is no reason you should miss the drama of trying to read a papyrus torn in half or riddled with holes or smaller than a postage stamp—brackets imply a free space of imaginal adventure.

ahuntersheart:

“Thing Language”
by Jack Spicer

This ocean, humiliating in its disguises
Tougher than anything.
No one listens to poetry. The ocean
Does not mean to be listened to. A drop
Or crash of water. It means
Nothing.
It
Is bread and butter
Pepper and salt. The death
That young men hope for. Aimlessly
It pounds the shore. White and aimless signals. No
One listens to poetry.

Do you think the dictionary ever says to itself
I’ve got these words that mean completely
different things inside myself
and it’s tearing me apart?
My errors are even bigger than that.
You start taking down the walls of your house,
sooner or later it’ll collapse
but not before you can walk around
with your eyes closed, rolled backwards
and staring straight into the amygdala’s meatlocker
and your own damn self hanging there.

—(E) From “Selected Recent and New Errors” by Dean Young. This was one of those poems that starts out harmless enough…and then there’s an image or so like this and you just feel very…small. (via sonnateers365)

(via ahuntersheart)

Vertigo by Anne Stevenson

Mind led body
to the edge of the precipice.
They stared in desire
at the naked abyss.
If you love me, said mind,
take that step into silence.
If you love me, said body,
turn and exist.

via her-rabbits

pasiphae:

bookshavepores:

“Don’t ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.”


don’t ever tell anybody everything.

pasiphae:

bookshavepores:

“Don’t ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody.”

don’t ever tell anybody everything.

(via tiamunie-deactivated20110726)

The girl dreams she is dangerously ill. Suddenly birds come out of her skin and cover her completely.

—Carl Jung, Man and His Symbols (via liquidnight)

her-rabbits:

It’s been 500 years and I’m trading in my tongue for an imported fluorescent tubule.    […]    My latest tongue strobes your lingua franca, my latest graft lights up your primordial past.    […]    your favorite ride: Heaven’s Up.  Heaven’s up, Kid!

from Humpadori Sphinx Friend by Vidhu Aggarwal

aurai:

1910 — Paris flooded, Historical Library of Paris (via loeuvre-au-noir)

aurai:

1910 — Paris flooded, Historical Library of Paris (via loeuvre-au-noir)

“Just as anyone who listens to the muse will hear, you can write out of your own intention or out of inspiration….”

“Just as anyone who listens to the muse will hear, you can write out of your own intention or out of inspiration….”

“Death is the sanction of everything the story-teller can tell. He has borrowed his authority from death.” Walter Benjamin

“Death is the sanction of everything the story-teller can tell. He has borrowed his authority from death.” Walter Benjamin

For anyone, who has known a friend who took their own life - or even considered it.

We understood him to be more accessible than he was. We imagined that in loving him as we did, we gained a reliable knowledge of him. […] This was foolishness. To have lived beside him and have never grasped how he struggled with his life—it was a kind of ignorance that makes me want to twist now, thinking of it.

—Kevin Patterson, Country of Cold (via secondarywaltz)

(via secondarywaltz)

Man is the creature who cannot get outside of himself, who knows others only in himself, and when he says the contrary, he lies.

—Marcel Proust (via fuckyeahproust)

(via secondarywaltz)

bookshelfporn:

Books are for people who wish they were somewhere else (by Morpheus © Schaagen via prettybooks)

bookshelfporn:

Books are for people who wish they were somewhere else (by Morpheus © Schaagen via prettybooks)